Well I'm putting myself out there

And as a result, literally 15 minutes after posting my resume...I got a call for an interview on Tuesday for a number of jobs all paying twice as much as I make now.

Thank God.

I'm sure Akira is very thankful too since he's been carrying most of the load lately.  

*head hits desk*

I got my hair colored. LOL.  Anytime a major change is happening, I usually take it out on my hair.

I also chopped off about 8 inches off the length.  Akira was happy about the color but not the cut, lol, but I've been working just about as much as he is now, and my main goal was to sleep as long as possible in the mornings, and my hair was just taking up too much of my time.  I also changed my make up to a much faster applying one.  I know most women wake up before the sun to make themselves look perfect, but fuck that shit, I need my sleep.  It's great make up, it's called Pur Minerals ladies, literally takes 30 seconds to apply.  

Tada, the power of powder makeup.

I lost my law suit that I thought that got dropped because my lawyer told me it got dropped, so I lost because I didn't show up to the trail.  So the police came into my work to serve me wage garnishment papers, so that was fun.  It took me two days to find my lawyer that was dodging me, and have him help me file for an appeal.  So now that stopped the wage ordeal as well as ensured a trail to where I can fight back the SOBs who claim I owe them any money back from an ordeal that was THEIR FAULT when I was 23 (I'm 28 now).  If I lose, I'll have to file bankruptcy, so...this summer has been tough.

I'm looking for admin. assistant jobs now, since I'm great at running everyone else's life except for my own.  I'm praying to find something good soon, because I don't think I could stand having the down time of not working.  Right now even weekends depress me when I have nothing to do.

I hope my next boss will be a woman...or at least a mainly female environment because I'm also sick of falling into toilets of poorly lit bathrooms.

 I've just been really stressed, and I can't drink right now due to my detox, so it sucks because I can't just...turn off.

Anyhow...Akira and I are doing well.  I still think he has a semi-crush on one of his employees, but it could all be in my head.

Akira finally got jealous in Alabama when he met some of the guys that are still in love with me.  Ever since then, he seems to hold me closer.  So that's good I guess.  I warned him, I got proposed to 7 times before he met me...so.... :-/  At least I feel like he's very much into me now.  He's been a really great guy lately.  I hope it stays that way. 

Everyone tells me that I'm just really bad with change and that's why I'm so stressed out...I just hope it all changes for the better. 

Mini update

I'm a zombie because I had some horrible nightmares last night so pardon me if I don't make any sense lol.

First of all, I want to say thank you to my few but totally awesome readers.  I don't think my life is very exciting, but it's always pretty weird and dramatic, looool.  So thank you for checking up on me and seeing if I'm okay...I'm okay loooool. 

I had a string of friends die over the summer...and it landed me back home in Alabama for a week...which was interesting.  It had been 8 years since I had gone back home (I left at 20) and while it was nice to see everyone and to show Akira around...it only enforced the fact that it's pretty impossible for me to live a happy life there.  (I'm not Christian, I'm a half breed married to a Japanese guy...I think everyone looked at us like we were crazy) Plus you know, I'm hitting 30 without kids, which is unheard of in the rural swamps of Alabama where I grew up.  So yeah...but it was still kinda fun despite the fact another friend died while we were there and the weather was nuts. 

I came home to learn that our business is going under.  I haven't been allowed access to any accounting records for about a year now so I'm not sure how we could be suffering so badly.  This is now resulting in me looking for a new job, probably a paralegal job since I'm lovingly nicknamed "Firecracker" but the residing judge here everytime I enter his courtroom.  I also made another decision...

I'm going to retake my LSATs (since they expired) and see if I can get a scholorship for law school.  It looks like Akira's contract is going to last a lot longer then we expected...so my fear of a big move is on hold so I figured...well...may as well try for it.  I was accepted at Chapman Law (partner of Stanford Law) when I was 23...but my LSATs were amazing.  I'm really sad they expired...but I heard some schools average out all attempts at the test, so maybe that'll be good because it's been a long time since I've studied for them. 


But I have gotten a lot of closure this summer.  I am off Prozac and even though life hasn't been all butterflies and unicorns, I'm very grateful and happy. 

I gained some weight getting off my meds...so I'm using a weight doctor to get back down again.

Other than that...not loving the tight budget but that will hopefully change soon.